Sometimes i find myself talking utter nonsense, and ruining moments of potential happiness in the process. Those moments when if i just shut my mouth, nothing would go wrong.
I have an amazing ability to self destruct. Instead of saying what i really mean too, my mouth just runs away from me, talking garbage, digging me deeper into a hole. The same hole i am trying to climb out of. Then i try to back track, end up sounding desparate when i really dont mean to be, apologise, and the cycle just goes around again.
Also mobiles phones and depression are a deadly combination. Text messages are pretty much evil, they sound so sterile and really cant get the message across. Unfortunately for me i also have major phone phobia, i cant even phone my best friends without feeling sick.
Please understand us depressives often say exactly what we DONT mean!!!
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